Thursday, March 31, 2011
{ 7:22 AM }
It's nearing. I have some expectations of you. Yet, I have a strong feeling that disappointment is awaiting me instead. I think I have over-estimated the value of our relationship, I misunderstood it. You might just prove to me that my feelings are accurate.
Sunday, March 20, 2011
{ 10:31 AM }
After getting on with my life without you for a period of time, I don't feel a need to even have you here. I thought you used to be part of me, but I am wrong. I thought so because you were all around me, you are in everything I do, you just played a role in every single thing that happened. Now that I don't see you at all, I feel that you are totally redundant and I can live without you. Ok, since now I know this, you can just go away. You are just being a busybody poking your nose into my business when it does not even concern you. Think you got the hint from me and you are backing down right? Good. Now that you are gone, I feel less irritated and less guilty with myself. Thank you. I don't wish to snap at you again and again. I feel bad for doing that, but I cannot control anymore.
I wonder if how someone calls you actually reflects the relationship between the two. For example, if someone calls you a senior, what would that mean? I really don't know why it made me so sad..what actually is our relationship, I start to wonder. It made me rethink about us. I mean maybe it's just me, not us. Sorry, I think I'm reading too much into your actions.
Next week is the hell week. Quizzes on tuesday, wednesday, thursday and then assignment due on friday. Yet, I haven't done like anything. Gosh, what have I been doing during the holidays? I don't know also. Kept procrastinating, thinking I can like rush everything in a day or what. But well, I'm always wrong. Wish me luck.
Do you believe in angels? I do. It's really not naive to think that there is an angel because I really felt my guardian angel's protection. Thank you angel for looking after me and my family. Thank you. I wouldn't know what to do if you weren't here:)